Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Thankful Day #9: A Loving Heavenly Father

Thankful Day #9: A Loving Heavenly Father

To say I am "grateful" for my Heavenly Father seems like an understatement. It is so much more than that. I owe him my LIFE and unfortunately, I don't think I always give it to him 100% like I should. I have had a really good life and have been blessed beyond what I can even comprehend. I know those blessings come from Him. Just like in everyone else's lives, I have also had times where I have just struggled. It has been during those hard times when my Father in Heaven sweetly lets me know that He is there for me, always has been, and always will be, in some way or another.

My Heavenly Father was right by my side throughout the whole process of my mom dying. I think my mom was, too. The day of her funeral was really tough. I rode with my stepdad on the way to the church building while we listened to her favorite Mormon Tabernacle Choir cd, and I was just feeling anxious. I had done a lot of the planning and I wanted to make sure everything looked right, that the display was in order, the flowers were received, etc. I wanted to look like I was put together. I was also supposed to speak, which I was fine with. Public speaking doesn't bother me. But the fact that this was all for my mom's funeral made it extremely overwhelming. This was a day that I had always known would come, but not as soon as it did. I felt so sick to my stomach, I was shaking from constant chills, and I was on the verge of losing it. So, before everyone got there I asked my stepdad to give me a priesthood blessing. I do not remember all the words that were said in that blessing, but I remember that immediately afterwards, I felt complete peace. My body wasn't shaking anymore, my stomach didn't hurt one bit, and for the entire day I felt the peace I needed to feel to get through that dreaded day.

I know without a shadow of a doubt that that blessing came directly from my Heavenly Father. He was there for me when I needed Him and He still is. I know that this is not the only occasion where I have had such a strong confirmation that He is there for me. He watches over me day by day, through good and bad, all the time. I know that when I come to Him in prayer, he listens and he answers. And he does the same for you. He knows our fears, our joys, our trials, our insecurities, our successes and failures. Everything. All he asks is that we let Him into our lives, our hearts, our minds, everything. Luke 11:9 reads, "And I say unto you, Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you."